All My Life

All my life, my whole life long,
Despite my efforts I've had it wrong.
To wake this day I at once realized,
That Self and Me and even I,
They are all now so very despised.
I've lived for Me my whole life long,
Trying, protecting, my heart so strong.
I awoke today, knowing truth:
I am so weak, oh, how I've failed,
The hurt I've caused has left long trails.
All the demands to have it my way
Have caused others hurt and relation's decay.
And I am left here all alone
With this mess so now I'm prone
To lean on Him who still loves Me
To trust His heart, I've learned is key.
To serve these others scattered here about
Is to serve my Master and I must shout:
Good-bye to Me and Mine and I
To lean on Self I won't even try.
My Father's arms are opened wide
To capture me and let me hide.
He is here to protect my heart,
To daily give a fresh new start.
He gladly sweeps my mess away,
Oh praise His name, He's here to stay.
I give Him thanks and look to Him,
To help and serve and begin again.