Full Then Empty

I went away full but the LORD has brought me home empty. Ruth 1:2 NLT

I went away full.

Full of self, full of fear.

I left full of dreams, overflowing.

I went away all filled up

With Me and Mine and My-way.

Long years later,

The LORD, my Master, my Savior,

Has brought me home.

Empty.

Empty of control, and My-this-is-how.

Empty of dreams now scattered.

Empty of demands and commands,

And the endless I-wants.  

My LORD has brought me back

Full of graves and ache,

Full of trust and hope,

Full of Truth.

Now long emptied of fear and My-way,

And the nonsense of I-can-do-it-myself,

I am filled with grace,

With peace,

And am overflowing

With more of Him.