I am prodigal.
Demanding of my Father. Wild, unrestrained in my living. In my anger. In my thoughts. In my brokenness. Each time, I must come to the point of want before I turn. Before I humble.
Before I beg of my Father, what He longs to give.
He is reckless, unrestrained. He lavishes love where I deserve contempt. He is wild in His comfort, soothing my ache. He is abundant in mercy removing my stain.
My father is prodigal, extravagant.
I am prodigal. I am the elder brother in my pride. In my envy. In proving my abilities. I do not melt under my Father's grace. I harden. Refusing to come in. To enter the abundance.
Even so, my Father is relentless, pursuing. Again, He lavishes. Again offers all.
I come to my senses. I return to my Father.
He is prodigal. He is lavish.
And the celebration begins.